Friday July 24.

The air is almost perfectly still. There is cloud cover. Not clouds per se. It’s overcast. A chiffon scarf over a pale blue sky. I remember once in Costa Rica my driver asked what Americans mean when they say the sky is overcast? I said, like a net.

I slept well. I’ve been reading a lot in the evening. Instead of rewatching shows on the streaming services that I have seen so many times. There are some good looking mysteries on both of the services that I subscribe to. However, I have learned that my nervous system can only handle so much before bed. So I have picked up a book or wait for it, a New Yorker!! I have noticed that I sleep better without the drama.

The coffee is almost too strong. ummm, I finished, “Whistler” last night. I think I’ll take it to my hairdresser today. I’m trying to practice letting go. I’m so attached to so much stuff! Books especially. And clothes!! My word I’m ridiculous! Selling items on eBay has helped. Once something is out the door I don’t even remember it. Whatever sentiment I have conjured up is gone.

https://ebay.us/m/wvs324

I was feeling lonely this morning. I did go to the Y four days in a row. Yesterday was the best fun. The teacher played a Motown compilation and everyone in class sang along to, “You Can’t Hurry Love” by The Supremes. We splashed that water and laughed and laughed!! That’s the best medicine!! Aqua Fit class! Do it!

The air is so completely still. It’s kind of amazing. I’m going downtown on the bus today. It’s time for a hair cut. I only get a cut about once a year now. It looks gorgeous then all of a sudden it looks crazy witchy. I like a bit more of “a style”, a bit more sass. Less messy hag hair.

I took a break. I had to get up and take a pill. Then I walked around a bit. Now the coffee has gone completely cold. I’m feeling a bit anxious. I forgot what I was going to say. I better get up and get the day going. Put on some music and dance around. Eat something. Make the bed. See what else there is to do.

I am extremely grateful to be alive and sober. For this morning in this place. For this apartment especially. For curiosity and possibility. For inspiration. For the Y and all the new friends that sing along to old Motown together. What a thing!

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