Weather

My inner weather has shifted. Martha Graham wrote in her autobiography, “practice in the face of all obstacles”. Elizabeth Taubert talked about momentum. That was years ago when I just up and quit my job at the UC.

It has taken a long time for me to put it all together. All the various teachings and brilliant teachers. It may be cliché to say but it seems like a great tapestry.

I was drawn to dancing. What a great tool to learn to practice in the face of all obstacles. In the studio I learned to focus and keep trying. One more pirouette. Jump just a bit higher. Let the leap travel a little further. Training to focus and the feeling of letting go into the momentum was intoxicating for me.

Also, studying with different teachers and choreographers made me train my mind and body to accept change. From Sarah Singleton to Richard Arve, vastly different energy and shape ideas. In the beginning resistance can be strong. Then, with practice a sense of ease and comfort arrives.

I feel lucky and grateful for that very early training. It serves me to this day. Practice is the key. When bouts of fear and doubt encroach I have a North Star to aim for even in the dark.

Show up sober and be of good cheer. My first sponsor made that suggestion. Then I heard a guy say, “no matter what position my body is in, my soul is on its knees”. That blew me away. I was just learning to stay sober. Was terrified of being brainwashed. Then someone suggested that maybe my brain could use a bit of washing!! So it went, thirty two years of practicing.

I could go on but it’s time to get ready for water aerobics at the Y.

🙏🏻☮️🦋